The Cartographer's Confession
#I have been lying to you.
The river does not bend where I drew it bending. There is no grove of aspens at the foot of that hill — I invented them one evening when the lamp was low and I was lonely for trees. The dotted trail leading east from the church? It ends at nothing. I know because I walked it once, and when the path gave out beneath my boots, I kept drawing it anyway, stretching it toward a lake I named after my mother.
She never saw a lake that blue. Nobody has.
For thirty years the town has trusted my maps. Hunters have carried them into the mountains, folding and refolding along the creases until the paper turned soft as cloth. Children have traced the roads with their fingers during long car rides, believing themselves located, believing the world was knowable and held boundaries.
It does. Just not these.
I started small — a footbridge I wished existed over Carpenter Creek, so old women wouldn't have to walk the long way around in winter. Then a shortcut through the Nolan property because Nolan was a miser who deserved a public trail stamped across his land. Then more. A second peak on Harlan Mountain because one looked lonely. An island in the reservoir, no bigger than a dime on paper, just large enough to dream on.
Last week a girl came into my office, maybe ten years old. She unfolded my latest survey map and pointed to the island.
"I want to go there," she said.
"Why?"
"Because it's the only place with no roads going to it."
I am telling you now: the island is real. I don't care that I made it up. Someone will have to go there and build it.
I'll draw them a bridge.